I Can, I Am

I have never liked the idea of New Year’s resolutions; if I made resolutions then I didn’t like the thought of potentially letting myself down, which would lead to disappointment and guilt. Why would I want to do that? Well, the truth is that the personal growth and positive changes I made in 2011 have given me the strength and courage to write down goals for 2012. Goals vs. resolutions…it just sounds better to me.

You can see my list of goals below.

The list is not flawless. Historically I have been all about perfection. Something as simple as folding towels, to the cleanliness of my home or a work project – whatever I was doing it had to be the very best.  I was under the impression that what is on the outside matters most. If it looks great, then everything is great. That is so far from the truth and it is an exhausting way to exist.  One of my goals is to be more forgiving with myself and focus on me.

In the past I would have thrown my list away with the first mistake in writing – not anymore! This list is just fine the way it is – not everything has to be perfect. (Am I actually writing and believing that?) Yes I am! 

It may have taken me a little time to figure out where I want to be professionally and personally, however, I am on my path. I am determined and focused, passionate and excited about my future. Why? Because I can and am creating the life that I want. I am listening to my voice and my intuition, which historically I had pushed aside. I wanted to please other people – be perfect – take on tasks that I thought would impress other people, all the while not impressing myself with these choices. I had a difficult time being truly honest in the moment.  I didn’t want to ruffle feathers, and I wanted to make everyone happy. The end result: I was miserable. 

I made changes in 2011 that were difficult and life changing. I am actually happy AND THAT’S BECAUSE I am being true to me. My friendships have grown, doors are opening for me career-wise, and my family life is better than ever. Choosing to be kinder to myself and go with my gut are the foundation of where and who I am today. I’m looking forward to conquering the list below – 2012 is going to be a great year!