Dare to Stop drug use

Can't get off this synthetic marijuana. I hate it, I hate how I feel. I tried it once like an idiot and I regret that day. Regular pot, pills, drinking, smoking cigs were all so easy for me to just give up in the past. This has become my crutch, think where its legal and so readily available. Please if you have any actual information on the long term affects of this stuff I would be interested. I have heard 'that stuff kills' 1000 times. It's so new that even my Dr looked at me and said 'whats that???' when I asked for help. I have been 'clean' for 4 years now because this doesn't show up on drug tests. I have smoked this everday in and out for over a year. I am in debt so bad from it I just want out.

No I have not. I need to set some type of accountability in order for change to take place and remain in place. I want and will beat this. One day at a time to reach my goal of a true healthy lifestyle

clean and sober since march 1st/2012

I have not smoked any weed for two weeks now and I feel magnificent!! I notice my memory is improving and I dont feel like I am in a constant haze. My motivation is back in full swing and I actually have ambition!! For someone who has smoked this daily for the past three years, quitting can be done!! Its hard, but the trade off is so much better :)

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its only short term happiness, and I really want to quit, since I will be stronger and I will feel better if I quit.

Well here it is. Something that I used to keep secret (but I am sure everyone knew)has now been let out of the closet. I know smoking pot is holding me back, I hate that I want to quit afterwards and say that, "This is the last time." I had a good run of not smoking for about a month and a half, and then I had a girlfriend that I used to smoke with come visit and it was back to old habits fast and hard! I have been a regular smoker since I was 16 and now I am 33. Sometimes I have said I will just be a weekend smoker, but that never seems to happen. I hope by joining this group that I realize that there are people out there that are in the same situation as myself.

In articles I've read, they say to plan ahead your last day of smoking weed. Mine is tomorrow although deep down, I don't want to smoke tomorrow. I want to begin right away. I used to care about my goals and I had the energy to accomplish many. Now, I smoke to escape my past, a mini vacation from my present. I'm in college majoring in Philosophy. How can I continue to use marijuana and concentrate on dense material? I can't. There are things I want and I know whats holding me back. Time to stop making excuses.

Today is the first day of me not smoking weed. I'm quiting forever. I cant smoke weed anymore.. here are a few reasons why. Smoking weed makes me completely lazy and apathetic, it takes away my drive to get all of the things i want in life. It makes me feel depressed and guilty. When i try to use only once in a while or tell myself just this one time it always comes back to me using everyday. I use to numb myself out and not feel any pain, i use to forget about whats going on in my life, i use to not care that im messing things up by smoking instead of being productive, i use because im bored. Whenever I smoke weed I always smoke a lot of cigarettes and comlpetely pig out on any food i can get my hands on. Im irresponsible with my money when I smoke and in order not to smoke alone will sometimes pay for friends. I drive around when i have to go home and dont even pay attention to what im doing. My life is different when I smoke.. it takes away my self esteem, it makes me feel like a person who will never make anything of their life.

I've decided to stop taking my narcotics I take just to get high, instead of using them when I really need them. I started several years ago, and it really affected school and work, and I even ended up in the hospital for overdosing. I've had enough of it, and I'm stopping for good.

Ran out of Adderall today and won't get my new script or any extra until the 10th. I've gotten up to a prescribed dose of 105mg/day, and I'm usually taking extra on top of that. I have someone holding onto my meds, but I got my own script that I'm hiding this month, so I'll probably wind up going through it in a day or two, like I used to. The next few days are going to be .

i have put together 4 years 1 month and 3 days of continuous clean time it is hardest in the beginning. it will get easier. it takes a long tome for your brain and body to normalize, when i had 90 days i was still very insane. but i did not use no matter what. one day i suddenly realized that i had gone a whole day without a craving. if you up keep quitting over and over until you make it. i am now a normal productive member of society. i have a boring life and that is so exiting. at first it will get better, then it will get worse, and then it just gets different.

No drugs since Aug 15th. whats that? thats right, 17 days!
the first week was a , but it seems to be getting easier. i am staying busy with the rest of my dares, save money, spending time with family, exercising, and eating healthier.

Started using cocaine four years ago and for some reason just never stopped. I used to do it four ties a week with a group of friends I used to hang with all the time. After distancing myself from that crew, I stopped the regular use, but for some reason couldn't get rid of it for good. Almost like clockwork, every 30 days I would break down and end up getting another $100 worth. I would then spend the next three days going through it all and simultaneously despising myself. When it was done, I'd then feel overwhelming shame and guilt. The worst part is that I used to do it socially with those friends I mentioned... now it's just me locked in my bedroom doing it alone. My live in girlfriend doesn't even know about it. It feels so seedy... yet so difficult to get past that 30 day mark.

Well, I'm happy to say that today is day 42. I've broken past that old barrier. I signed up to this site today because for the first time... I really feel like I want to get that cocaine. So I Googled "how to treat cocaine addiction" and this was one of the sites that came up. I'm not going to get anything today. But the fact that I seriously considered it , scares the out of me. It's like there's someone else living in my head sometimes... a Mr Hyde.. and I'm just trying to stack the odds in my favor. Trying to give myself as many tools as possible so that the next time he tries to take control I can beat him down again.

Sorry if this post seems so long! Hah! Writing it helped me find strength.

Good luck everyone.

I didn't smoke any reefer today! I sure thought about it though. I had to talk myself out of walking down the slippery slope early in the day.

I snorted a line of coke off a strippers last night. It was a great night!!! Back on the wagon today!

Been on a binge for a couple of weeks now and I'm so tired. I'm committed to not doing this anymore. I'm done. Please give me the strength I need to finally be done with drugs.

Im 20 years old in a few weeks, been smoking weed for about 5 years daily. sometimes i love it sometimes i hate it. I keep telling myself im going to stop but i miss it when i do. I keep thinking about it until i go out and do it. I feel like a for not being able to stop but thats usually only after ive already done it that day. Im really torn because i know it would probably be better without it but then i think well fuck it you only live once. To add to the problem most of the friends ive surrounded myself with smoke weed (go figure) so i find that days when i dont do it i dont really get out of the house. Not really sure what my next move is.

I was up till 4am... thinking. Thinking about the waste of time, money, energy, health- everything- that is wasted by getting high. Chasing after some high- one that i don't even get anymore. Smoke a 8th in a day and not even feel... stoned... or different. Just feel like sinking in to the couch. Sunday and last weekend i did coke- which i was always so strongly against- i always thought it would kill me. The first time it didn't, nor the second, or third.... but two weekends in a row is way too close, and i can tell i'm getting way to interested in it. I'm tired of my apartment smelling like cigarettes and bong water. Being afraid to invite family over because of it... living in filth because i lack the energy....

I want to be healthy! i want to be able to run without stopping to cough up a lung! I want to be able to push myself, instead of giving up because i've decided i can't do it- or don't want to.

I have a life to get on with!

So- no drugs, no cigarettes- day one has begun!

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