Eating disorders Group

by miss_disorientated on August 26th 2008 at 12:25 pm

As for me...

1. Martha and Honey, my two beautiful gerbilings!

2. (In no particular order) R.E.M // Alanis Morisette // Depeche mode // Tracy Chapman // Shelby Starner

3. 'One Flew Over The Cuckoos Nest'

4. (Just three!? haha) Australia (Great Barrier Reef) // Italy (particularly Rome) // Disney World, Florida!!

5. Erm... Rach!? lol

by CrazyLikeDaT on August 26th 2008 at 7:28 pm

1. Dog Ollie and 4 fish - desparately want more!
2. Right now Leona Lewis, Natasha Beddingfield, Atmosphere, Duffy, and PRINCE (I am from MN and it is the law!!)lots of old rock, metal, rap, disco, pop etc.
3. Hedwig and the Angry Inch (also my favorite musical)
4. China (ok, ya...the olympics) Australia, and Africa
5. Pea, T, and chicken when I was a teen - I had chicken legs

by cath0379 on August 26th 2008 at 9:00 pm

1 No, But I love dogs :)
2 Hmmm pending on my mood these days: Rihanna, Jack Johnson, Moby, MGMT, The Fray + a mix of a whole lot of songs ;)
3 The Professional
4 Australia/ New Zealand, French Polynesia, Spain (these are the top 3 but I'd love to see the world)
5 Nounou (comes from way back but it kinda stuck!) and Cat
Made it under 400 woohooo, not bad!

by xBritneyBonesx on August 27th 2008 at 1:08 pm

I have a dog and a cat
My top five are, The acacia atrain, as blood runs black, job for a cowboy, beethoven, and bach.
I like all movies, its hard to pick a favorite.
I would love to visit anywhere in Europe Or Canada
Hahahahaha. I wont even go there.

by eldumas84 on December 1st 2008 at 11:46 am

-my cat Prince Charles the III aka Chuckie
-Eagles,Kansas,Rihanna,Breakin Benjamin,Papa Roach,Chris Brown,TI
-Forest Gump,Notebook,Dazed N Confused
-all of Italy,Israel
-KeKe,Edna Jean (Don't ask),Crazy E

by Beccaab5 on January 19th 2009 at 10:39 am

1. Two cats but they live with my parents
2. Modest Mouse, Led Zeppelin, The Pixies, Wilco, and CCR
3. Godfather, and anything by/with Christopher Guest
4. Ecuador, Peru, and Maui
5. Becca, Beck

by grantmethinness on February 16th 2009 at 8:33 pm

Pets: Yes!
2 Cats (Oshkosh and Trouble), a German Shepard (CJ), an Iguana (Iguanana), a Rat (Coda Vivaldi), and *drum roll* 4 horses (Skeeter (Mustang), Lady (pony), Grant and Rosa (Quarter Horses). haha... yeah, I've got pets.

by LalooTarr on March 17th 2009 at 5:21 pm

1. My dog's name is suzie
2. I listen to everything....it all depends on my mood.
3. Blood Diamond
4. Italy, Croatia, Poland, Hawaii, Central American Islands
5. Laloo and Alex

by Aspiring on April 14th 2009 at 8:54 am

1. Do you have any pets?  I have two cats, BIm and Daisy, and a ferret called Ferdinand  :)
2. Who are your top 5 musical artists/bands? Ooh that's a toughy... P!NK, Lady Gaga, Pendulum, Kelly Clarkson, and ...erm ... I dunno. lol!
3. Favourite film? Ooh another tough one. Probably Stardust at the moment.
4. Name three places you would love to visit..  Australia, America, Africa.
5. Any nicknames? Hevski, Hevskitronic, Hevskilicious, Spudlington, Lizard, Bean...
 

by kat777 on May 1st 2009 at 2:54 am

1. lab pup (angus) two cats (tima and nyQuil) and a robo hamster (archimedes)
2. Primus, black dahlia murder, children of bodom, flogging molly, in flames
3. currently 'The Fall'
4. Provence, japan, palau
5. Kat(what ive been called by everyone including my mother for most of my life) Katastrophy (at work), Kathryn kritter (my best friends from highschool), Pumpkin salad and sugar tits (my husband), aunt kat (niece and nephews), burg (my dad and grandpa before they died), and so on

by melancholija on May 12th 2009 at 11:13 pm

o1. Oh, I wish I had a cat! But sadly, no.
o2. Sigur Rós, Vashti Bunyan, CocoRosie, Nico, Múm.
o3. Valerie A Týden Divu. 
o4. Iceland, outerspace, Tibet&Himalayas.
o5. Pamplemousse. 

by miss_disorientated on May 18th 2009 at 3:09 pm

Great answers everyone! I see I am not the only animal lover
Sorry I have been neglecting this group...
Hope everyone is hanging in there!
Rach x

by MicrophoneRain on May 26th 2009 at 6:13 pm

1. Do you have any pets?--Yup :3 Two chihuahuas <3
2. Who are your top 5 musical artists/bands?--Muse, Jack Johnson, Panic at the Disco, David Archuleta, and Kelly Clarkson.
3. Favourite film?--Erm...I love Legally Blonde lol.
4. Name three places you would love to visit.--Italy, Ireland, and Hawaii.
5. Any nicknames?--Cat and Pan (don't ask lol)

by mirror_error1 on June 2nd 2009 at 10:41 am

1. Do you have any pets? I wish! 
2. Who are your top 5 musical artists/bands? Bright Eyes / Conor O, Death Cab, Kevin Devine, Brand New
3. Favourite film? NA
4. Name three places you would love to visit.. Iceland, Switzerland, and N. Cali
5. Any nicknames? Kat

by missmadid on July 9th 2009 at 7:45 am

 1.I have a very old cat, Fizzi and a Rottweiler x doberman, Yuki.
2. Delta Goodrem, Christina Aguilera, Dolly Parton, Linkin Park, Three days grace
3. Lion King!
4. America, All of Australia, Canada
5. Nope

by monickerz on July 21st 2009 at 1:14 am

im new here   1. have a kitty named Pickles!!  2.  green day, weezer, madonna, elvis, and any 80's,  3.  fav movie would be Valley girl! love Nic Cage!! lol  4. would love to go to Africa, egypt, and jamaica  5, nicknames are  Mo and Moni
                             

by 100mgOfOohrah on August 28th 2009 at 9:00 pm

1. Do you have any pets?: I have four rats (Banana, Wendy, Dolly, and Fable), one cat (Buttons), and soon to have a puppy come November!
2. Who are your top 5 musical artists/bands?: Michael Buble, Young Blood Brass Band, Natasha Beddingfield, Vitamen String Quartet, and pretty much any kind of country.
3. Favourite film?: Remember the Titans, 300, Full Metal Jacket, and Heartbreak Ridge
4. Name three places you would love to visit.: Ireland, Spain, and Germany
5. Any nicknames?: Mo, Mama, Mo-Mo, Motown

by camillaoc on October 13th 2009 at 2:39 am

1. Do you have any pets? yes, I gave home to a cat after her owner passed away, her name is Blackie but I call her B or BK.
2. Who are your top 5 musical artists/bands? Slayer, Deftones, Glassjaw, KMFDM and Megaherz.
3. Favourite film? Tuntematon Sotilas (Unknown Soldier)
4. Name three places you would love to visit.  Japan, Maledives, Alaska.
5. Any nicknames? Cammy, JM

by miss_disorientated on August 26th 2008 at 12:00 pm

Welcome to this group,

I'm sorry you have struggled with this for so long.

Edema, as you know is a sign of an underlying physical problem, rather than a disease unto itself. To properly treat the problem you would need to explain your eating disorder and how the edema affects you to a medical professional in order to receive accurate advice.

by miss_disorientated on August 26th 2008 at 12:05 pm

Common advice given to Edema suffers include:

- Reducing sodium intake
- Exercise
- Elevation of the legs
- Use of support stockings
- Massage
- Frequent movement

However that advice is not always appropriate for eating disorder sufferers... especially the sodium and exercise part!

by miss_disorientated on August 26th 2008 at 12:08 pm

As for helping yourself emotionally, it is really hard to state what is the best treatment, as different things work best for different people, however I think it is important that you stick with the therapy, as it often is a long term process.

Try to take care.

by cath0379 on August 26th 2008 at 8:26 pm

thank you so much

by miss_disorientated on August 26th 2008 at 11:48 am

I don't know, but it is driving me mad!!! grrr

by CrazyLikeDaT on August 26th 2008 at 7:22 pm

Miss_Disorientated,

Have you contacted the webmaster for the site? There should be a way to add replies like all of the other sites. It would be much easier to use if we could.

T

by miss_disorientated on August 26th 2008 at 11:48 am

Welcome to the group!
I am sorry you have struggled with an ED for so long, I agree with your theory on 'recovery'.

Thanks for sharing your story.

by miss_disorientated on August 26th 2008 at 11:48 am

Welcome to the group!
I am sorry you have struggled with an ED for so long, I agree with your theory on 'recovery'.

Thanks for sharing your story.

by miss_disorientated on August 26th 2008 at 11:48 am

Welcome to the group!
I am sorry you have struggled with an ED for so long, I agree with your theory on 'recovery'.

Thanks for sharing your story.

by slalomkitty on August 12th 2008 at 7:26 pm

I empathize with your situation. I use food and calorie restriction as a coping method when I get depressed, too. I came here b/c I think this food diary thing might help me. It seems more constructive. Be careful with yourself, esp. with those pills. I think if you decide to "treat" yourself to a healthy lifestyle, it might be better. Good luck- sending good vibes!

by miss_disorientated on August 26th 2008 at 11:44 am

Welcome to the group!
Firstly, weight itself is no indicator on whether you are struggling with an ED...
As you have acknowledged I think you could benefit from talking to someone about these issues,
Is there a local counselling service you could access?

by miss_disorientated on August 26th 2008 at 11:15 am

Sorry it has taken me a while to respond.

I'm sorry to hear you are struggling so greatly.
It is understandable that your Mum is on your back, she will be concerned about your already low weight.
Acknowledging this is "wrong" is a start, but I think it is important you reflect on why it is "wrong".
1. Why do you want to weigh 90lb?
2. How will weighing 90lb improve your life?

by miss_disorientated on August 26th 2008 at 11:20 am

Cont...
If you answer both this questions honestly, I think you will find that losing further weight, in reality, will not solve your problems.
I realise this all probably sounds a bit patronising, after 3 years of battling this disorder, I'm sure you don't need me to tell you this....

by miss_disorientated on August 26th 2008 at 11:21 am

Cont...
But just try and weigh (no pun intended) the pros and cons of your dangerous goals and find reasons in which you should not lose more weight (such as having no energy) and use them to fight against this horrible disorder.

Also, are your receiving any professional help or support?

by miss_disorientated on July 5th 2008 at 1:51 pm

I'm sorry you have had such a struggle with Anorexia. Like you said one of the hardest things is the guilt. (excuse the pun) but I feel like it eats away at me.
However now that you realise you may be starting to relapse it would be a good idea to seek help before things get any worse again... perhaps you should speak to your doctor?

by amaciag on July 7th 2008 at 10:32 pm

Well the first time around they perscribed me to an antidepressant for EDs. I think I may have taken it for a week or two, but it made me so drowsy and it was hard for me to wake up in the morning.
-But really] I just talk myself out of it simply because I don't believe it will do anything for me.

by miss_disorientated on July 8th 2008 at 7:22 am

Keep talking yourself out doing it, if that's what works for you - though it may help to speak to your doctor again. You don't need to take medication again if you don't want to, but your doctor could refer you to a counsellor which may help.

by miss_disorientated on July 5th 2008 at 1:42 pm

Many people find it hard to distinguish between 'dieting' and 'disordered eating' and there are many differing views on the subject. In my opinion the main difference lies in whether the 'diet' has become a problem that affects various areas of your life instead of being simply a food plan which you are attempting to follow in order to IMPROVE your health.
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by miss_disorientated on July 5th 2008 at 1:46 pm

From what you have written it does sound like you are developing an ED, and deep down I think you know that too. The good news is, you are opening up to the problem, hopefully before it gets out of your control. Now is the time to get help, I know how tempting it is to think "I'll get help when I lose a bit more weight" but you won't, and your 'goal weight' will never ever satisfy you...

by miss_disorientated on July 5th 2008 at 1:47 pm

or should I say the eating disordered part of you, which with every pound lost will only become louder.
It is not going to be easy to fight the disorder - but it will be worth it. Trust me on that. Also can I ask what exactly it is that you hope to achieve by reaching 100lb? I ask this because sometimes if we can figure out what it is we want... we can try to find healthier ways of getting that.

by CrazyLikeDaT on August 8th 2008 at 8:45 am

Well said, Miss Disorientated! "dieting" is no longer a diet when it controls your life. That is the main componant of eating disorders, control. We strive so hard to control our eating that it actually controls us! What a dicotomy!!

Continued...

by miss_disorientated on July 5th 2008 at 1:29 pm

Never think you are 'too chicken' to purge.
It is never a good idea to start making yourself sick,
and just because you don't it doesn't mean you struggle any less than those who do. Once, I thought that purging would make the problem better but in fact it just made me binge even more. It is addictive and has awful effects on your body.
Are you getting any support for your eating disorder?

by CrazyLikeDaT on August 8th 2008 at 8:46 am

Also, you are right! With each pound lost, the disorder becomes stronger. Our "goal weight" is never enough and will not satisfy the beast within!

Best wishes to all.

by xoashleyxo32 on June 17th 2008 at 10:08 pm

I have been struggling with anorexia and now more often bulimia since last june. I push myself everyday to try and stop, but for some reason i just can't stop. I can go all day without purging but then late at night i overeat and purge. I hate myself for doig this but i don't know how to stop. I just need someone to talk to that is going through the same thing i am.

by miss_disorientated on July 5th 2008 at 1:05 pm

Hi Ashley,

I'm sorry you are really struggling with your ED at the moment. I know just how hard it can be to resist the urge to binge and purge.

What country are you in?
I ask this so I suggest some suitable support.

Try to take care,

Rachael x

by musajen on August 5th 2008 at 2:05 pm

Hi! I think I struggle with compulsive overeating and possibly food addiction. I'm hesitant to admit fully that I've got either problem, but I don't think I got to my present weight by eating small portions and lean, healthy foods. I want to be normal with food, or if I can't be normal, I at least want to know how disarm the beast within when I feel the need to stuff myself. Glad to be here!

by miss_disorientated on August 26th 2008 at 11:05 am

It's good that you acknowledge you have a problem, and compulsive overeating is just as serious as other disorders, it just affects one in a different way. Have you tried counselling? talking about why you feel the need to overeat could help you learn to battle those urges.

by TinaMare on April 28th 2009 at 11:36 am

A very helpful site for eating disorders is http://www.mirror-mirror.org/eatdis.htm.  I was anorexic but with treatment and a lot of hard work, I am doing a lot better now. 

by yyj642 on May 6th 2009 at 7:04 am

Hi!
I just joined this site and this group, and I'm not sure how to post a new message, so I'm just replying to this one. :)
I was anorexic for about four years, and then went off to college thinking I was okay, but in reality, I just traded restricting for binge-eating disorder. So now, two years after being told I needed to gain weight, I actually need to LOSE weight for my health....
It's frustrating. :/ But I hope this site will help keep me accountable.

by miss_disorientated on May 18th 2009 at 3:06 pm

TinaMarie -  so glad you are doing better with your eating disorder now.
yyj642 - (what a complicated name!) I'm sorry you have found yourself in this situation. I was in a similar predicament a few years back. I do hope your able to get some help with this horrible eating disorder, it's also important to remember that it doesn't matter which eating disorder you are suffering from - they are all horrendous and you deserve help.
 

by LGWeinberg on May 19th 2009 at 9:04 pm

 Hi.  I'm new here... not sure how to post a new thread so I guess I'll just reply.
I suffer from compulsive overeating/binge eating and have no idea how to stop.  I've been off and on bulimic for years though that has been mostly under control for a year or two.
I know I'm eating to avoid other feelings but knowing that hasn't helped me not do it.  I've done a bit of counseling but it doesn't help and with my lifestyle, it is hard to fit it in.  I'd appreciate any feedback or advise anyone can share.
 

by ssvoboda on July 10th 2009 at 12:24 am

Hello friends! My story is below, please message me if you want to talk--I would love to hear about you :)
Day in, and day out, since I was 13 I now realize that I have been struggling with a binge eating disorder. Sadly, (or thankfully) it wasn't until I read on this site that I now realize the seriousness of this condition. Now I want--as others have said--to come out of my shell about it. Although, I don't think my family would be supportive, so if you have the same struggle, feel free to message me :) My goal is to make this disorder as real as possible to myself so I can visualize my life without it. Right now I am in physical pain--there is no rationale to going under cover of night to pump my body full of food I don't care to taste. I spend hours working out after a binge to burn off twice the calories I ate. This has made living a normal life impossible. I want to feel fully present--and I can no longer achieve this through bingeing.
Lately I have found greater solace by seeking my independence from an authoritative and repressive family, and I have begun to cut out fake sugar i.e. aspartame, diet soda, and caffeine which before controlled my life and ignited carb and sugar cravings. In fact, by taking HTP-5, a natural mood-lifter and apetite and sleeping aid, I have found greater control. But I just relapsed. Its as though I was punishing myself for feeling better, and looking better (I lost 5 pounds and toned up when I stopped bingeing). Does any one else use food to actually make themselves look worse in order to stop all the unwanted attention? I've never been comfortable talking about this, but do other women binge or starve themselves in order to be less conspicious?

by mermaidessn1 on July 23rd 2009 at 6:42 pm

im  going nuts. ive been bulimic 12 years, and trying to not bp as much this month. i work 10 hr days and im OBSESSED with food. i cant get enough. i dont have time or energy to work out. its making me so nuts

by miskaten on August 15th 2009 at 4:47 am

1. Yes one gorgeous cat called Tubbs :D
2. Hmm, havnt really got fav bands, more fav songs and they are: Greenday, Macys day parade. Radiohead, Creep. Polaroid, So damn beautiful. I like depressings songs.
3. Ghostworld. I feel like Enid all the time :/
4. Texas, haha random i kno. Austrailia. Italy
5. Not really, havnt really got many friends to hav a nickname :/
 
Btw ive been EDNOS for a while, ana tendancies which r seeming to get worse.
Hope everyone is doing ok :) x

by ijustrockout on August 17th 2009 at 7:52 pm

1. Do you have any pets?
yes, 2 very black cats - sniper and oji
2. Who are your top 5 musical artists/bands?
radiohead, smashing pumpkins (pre-breakup), Calla, Broken Social Scene, Eels...so many more...music is my passion in life & how i cope with literally everything.
3. Favourite film?
tough one - i'd have to say Basquiat
4. Name three places you would love to visit..
Hawaii, Japan, Greece
5. Any nicknames?
Neeks, Neek

by Crowette14S on September 24th 2009 at 5:47 pm

1. Do you have any pets?
Java, my dog
2. Who are your top 5 musical artists/bands?
My Chemical Romance, The Rasmus, The Used, Paramore, Halocene
3. Favourite film?
Dancer In The Dark and The Crow(original)
4. Name three places you would love to visit..
Finland, Ireland, Germany
5. Any nicknames?
Little Crow and Crowette, also Vegan Buddy.

by lindsaybrooke on November 18th 2009 at 2:08 am

My Bulimia Story
I have always had an addictive personality. as a child I was always hyperactive and hard to control. I had an old-fashioned european stepfather who abused me quit severly mentally and physically, his only way he knew to control or to cope with my behaviour. My mother was always to compassionate saviour. I used to fear being left alone with him when my mom had to go to work or grocery shop, go out with friends etc. and developed abandonment issues as little as 5-6 yrs old. As a teen at 16 yrs I started smoking cigarettes, smoking weed, having sex, drinking alcohol but never had an issue with food, although my appetite was always suppressed because of these addictions. As I rounded 21 yrs. I decided to clean up my health, sick of being sick all the time (strep throat, skin problems, low selfesteem issues, depression) so I quit everything cold turkey and started in the gym. I think naturally I turned to food as my only source of pleasure, not realizing the fault in that. I gained 40 lbs! slowly over about 2 years, and worked out hard to try and compensate to no avail. I became obsessed with different diets and workout regimes, baffled as to why i couldnt lose the weight (i knew nothing of calories, no one ever taught me at school or at home) At the same time I started dating a super jock, who, also was huge on diet and exercise (orthorexic) and very opinionated and stubborn (tad of arrogance, definitely judgemental) I felt I needed to step up my game in order to look my best if not for me, for him. I discovered in Fitness Magazine, the answer to my prayers. The formulation of exacting calories to weight! scientific, no fail approach. I started right away, giving up foods that were just to high in calories( meat, cookies, chocolate, ice cream, bread, nuts) but this restriction soon lead to uncontrollabe bingeing, afterwards feeling extremely ill from being to full, throwing up. At the same time, my boyfriend had a sister who was incredibly bulimic, and who he couldnt stop bitching about all the time. He had told me ways she made herself throw up, and you could say he unknowingly to this day taught me how to be bulimic. I started testing these methods, and I started to lose weight and keep it off! now i could stay on a restrictive diet, and on my nights alone I would be able to feast on anything I dreamed up without  consequences. or so it seemed. It was a downward spiral, it started as a weekly event. but quickly i was increasing the frequency, from a couple days a week then it got to daily episodes, sometimes up to 3x a day! I got extremely thin, people that once commented on how great i was looking, started questioning my extreme weightloss. i would get headaches, my face was swollen, eyes puffy, my body lost its menstruation cycle, etc. i went through depression worse than ever, and my bank account was slowly declining. i secluded myself, lost touch with relationships, and i was OBSESSED with calories, food types and exercise more than ever. i was found out after 2 years, partly because i was just too tired to hide it all the time and my sloppyness was noticed by my mother who then secretly confronted my boyfriend who sat me down and asked me what was going on. I confessed, and mortified but glad it was out in the open. He broke up with me, but i stopped being bulimic for a better part of a year. I went to college, saved money, looked great and felt fantastic, with a greater confidence and self awareness than before. I think it had a lot to do with not being with my controlling boyfriend who only wanted me for my looks (who will never admit that) he saw how greatly i had improved and wanted me back, and being lovesick from abandonment i jumped at the opportunity. As soon as i started the relationship, i incontrollably and not realizing why started my bulimia cycle again! it has been 6 months since then, and i finally come to realize, my boyfriend never wanted more than my body, not ever listening or caring to what i am about. this frustrated me til finally 3 weeks ago i broke it off. I am still bulimic, more than ever...I throw up all day most days, hardly eating twice a day. i went 3 days without purging recently, because i was sick with the flu. but couldnt even stop until i got better.i live with my parents because i cannot afford to live on my own. I spend about 700 dollars a week on food. i sleep all day, and binge and purge throughout the night, and on other days i will spend all day in my car going through drivethroughs and purging in remote parking lots when my family is occupying the house. i work 4 nights a week in a bar, just to cover my habit and basic bills. I workout 3-5 days a week, on top of it all. I started acupuncture and am currently seeking therapy methods to overcome this terrible disorder. I hope to get over this, but i know it will be a grueling haul. feel free to contact me, this is the first time i am able to begin to talk about it. thanks for reading.