VoluptuousCeleste

Hi, this is me, Celeste. I always have a lot to say...but in regards to pertaining to this site, this is how it is...

I'm adopted and suffered some abuse as a baby, that's not WHY I'm fat, but that's where it all started. By 4 I was told I was either going to be fat or 6'2. I am 5'10 and fat so they were close, but not right on. I became a hardcore emotional and desperate eater due to loneliness and painful repressed memories. I was afraid I wouldn't get any more food if I didn't go back for seconds, thirds, even fourths. By 15 I was already "morbidly obese" wearing a 3X in women's clothing and trust me, women's plus size clothing has come a LONG way since I was a teenager. At least they have more trendy styles now!

My eating habits were waking up at 5am, making a 4 egg omelette with leftovers -chicken or turkey, about half a brick of cheese and some tomatoes and spinach with a couple English muffins and margerine. I was afraid to eat at school as I was taunted by the other children so I'd go hungry all day. A latchkey kid, I'd come home and make like 3-4 cheese quesadillas and go to sleep until it was time for me to make dinner later that evening. Usually I'd make a somewhat decent dinner for a rural kid - game hens, rice-a-roni, and vegetables or tacos or meatloaf and mashed potatoes with corn - typical stuff for a country girl I suppose which wouldn't be that bad if I didn't go back for 2nd and 3rd helpings every time and always made way too much food.

I was teased and taunted REALLY bad for years, until I began singing at age 12 and then I finally earned some respect, but mostly from teachers, not my peers who stil relentlessly attacked me. My mother and sister weren't much help as they constantly ridiculed and berated me for my weight issues at home. I had no safe haven other than sleeping or eating.

I went to college to study as an opera singer and finally had my first social life. I was wildly popular with the gay boys of Hollywood, dressing in my wigs, 4-6in heels, boas, lingerie and dancing for hours on end even at 250+ pounds!



That was a big contrast to a girl who used to wear bulky, oversized clothing and was afraid to be seen and hardly ever wore makeup. I really came into myself like a butterfly back in college and my new found friends and independence helped dramatically increase my confidence because for the first time nobody cared that I was fat and my family, my mother and sister were no longer around to point out my flaws every day.



I still battle my weight issue and have never really dealt with it successfully, not even so much as a yo yo because I've never lost a significant amount of weight and gradually each year gain somewhere on average about 10 lbs that doesn't go away.

So I'm domestically partnered and I was married on a yacht in Newport Harbor on November 2nd, 2008 aboard the DESTINY. I run my own foreclosure business from home on the beach and have a recording studio in my office with my wife. I have a beautiful little boy parrot named Oiseau who inspires me to eat healthy with all his yummy grains and organic raw veggie diet and I definately have no plans to have children. My wife is a holistic health practitioner who lost 100 lbs herself (although she gained back 40 lbs over the past 3 years of our relationship) and knows TONS about nutrition and the body and I have a 24 hour Fitness account I never (never say never) use. I usually have a great abundance of energy,and now that I get to run my new business from home I'm in complete control of what I am consuming so I get to try as many weird diets and recipes as I want. Yay! (Check out my meals)



My favorite physical activities are swimming, yoga, tai chi, walking, riding my bike at the beach, boogie boarding and dancing. I also live right on the beach where everyone walks and cycles and I am in SOUTHERN CALIFORNIA where there is a healthy store or a Trader Joe's just about everywhere you look....so what does that mean? I REALLY have no damn excuses left.




I just had a real shocker when I weighed myself on April 25th and found out I was 302 lbs so I'm setting a new plan in motion called Lose 100 lbs by Losing 10lbs Per Month Plan. I think it's all in the name really.

My main concern is not to substitute low calorie, low fat, low carb foods for nutritious foods soo I'm leaning my new eating lifestyle towards a mentality other than that of "dieting." My new frame of mind is this - do not eat recreationally, eat as though every thing that goes into my mouth serves a nutritional purpose either giving me the fiber, protein or nutrients I need. Food is made to sustain the body not damage it.

I take a lot of healthy supplements and incorporate and abundance of "super foods" in my diet. I have vegetable and hemp protein shakes, acidophilus, greens, high doses of B-12, Cayenne, ginger, lemon, green tea, Omegas, Aminos, kombucha, digestive enzymes, Blue-Green Algae and as much organic, vegan and raw & fresh foods that offer a lot of fiber and protein as I can handle.



I try to avoid all of the following: (keyword:try)

Bread (except my low carb high fiber tortilla indulgence or organic hemp bread)
Pasta (shiritaki instead)
Cereal (except my organic puffed wheat with hemp milk on occasion)
Candy (an occasional organic lozenge only)
Pastries, Cakes, Pies & Doughnuts (Sugar-Free Jell-o Instead)
Fried Foods
Pancakes, Waffles, muffins, bagels & biscuits
Refined Sugars
Refined Salt
White Potatoes
Salting My Food (already too high in sodium)
)
Sugary Fruit Juices (Naked or Organic Fresh Juice instead)
Sugary or Sugar-Free Sodas (Except for Hansen's Diet)
Greasy foods laden with real butter & oils (except for flax oil, hemp oil, grapeseed oil or canola oil spray)
Preservatives
Fatty High Calorie Nuts & Seeds
High Sugar Fruits like bananas, plums & peaches
Too many easy-to-grab snacks that add calories

My goal is really to avoid eating out at all and if I do to actually make good choices that are low calorie and have some sort of nutritional value to them, which is soooooo incredibly hard for me to do!

MY ULTIMATE DREAM BODY IS THAT OF BETTY BROSMER! BIG HIPS & BOOTY ALL THE WAY, TINY WAIST!



My habits are not binging at home, but binging outside of the home. I don't eat late at night and have a small appetite in the morning. I don't eat often enough throughout the day to keep my metabolism going but usually resort to a big late lunch/early dinner where I end up blowing all my calories usually by socially eating. My other bad habit is that I do no physical activity whatsoever.

Goal weights & Dates:

START APRIL 25TH, 2009 300 LBS
END FEBRUARY 25TH, 2010 200 LBS THAT'S WHERE I WANNA BE!

Once I get under 200 I'm happy, and I want to stay there. I don't care if I ever lose a pound more so long as I never gain one, but I would like my weight to balance out somewhere in the vicinity of 175-195 which according to most charts is my ideal weight with my tall 5'10 frame.




Just say no to gastic bypass surgery. You can do it!!!